magic on sunday: scrolling into the past

did you know you can search facebook by year and month? somehow this week i got in a deep rabbit hole of my facebook history. i scrolled all the way back to some of the first photos i ever uploaded there in 2005 - two separate albums titled, “lovin’ life” and “still lovin’ life” (as one does at 18 years old). i thought about the digital camera i always had on me and how it served as a play-by-play and a visual record of some of the most formidable years of my life.

i can’t exactly place the feeling i felt as i explored the archives of my past - 14 years of documentation that’s slowed a lot over the past few years. there’s something deeply comforting about getting to revisit your past self with a few clicks and scrolls, and something kind of...painfully nostalgic about it too. i don’t know. i’m not sure what i’m trying to get at here.

part of me wishes i could go back and tell my past self that the sepia filter is an amature move and not very ~artsy~ at all, despite what jack johnson might have said. part of me wishes i could bring back messages from the future to set my (then) fragile mind at ease. part of me, despite happily living the life i’ve always wanted to live, wishes i could go back and feel the energy, excitement, and blind optimism my past self once exhibited.

present me wonders what my future self will think about my past self in about 14 years.

magic on sunday: 04.29.18
vacation - still woozy
somebody new - mr jukes
la luna - burns twins
i’m the moon - spooky mountain
sure it can - michael nau
nice boys - temporex
flaming hot cheetos - clairo

until sunday,

meghan

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