magic on sunday: sit still
when my family lived in hawaii we’d spend most weekends driving an hour east to one of our favorite beaches called bellows. it’s the kind of beach that’s shallow, calm, and beautifully clear.
except for this one particular weekend. the surf was choppy and thick with seaweed, but being a pretty fearless 9 year old, i took my boogie board and paddled out.
i’d caught a ton of waves at this point in my life, but the first wave i went for sent me whirling like a pair of socks in the spin cycle, dragging me across the ocean floor. when the wave broke on the shore, i remember floating facedown, my board still attached to my wrist, and basking in the safety of the stillness. the feeling of that moment is still very distinct: almost like an out of body experience, i was filled with an insane sense of calm and assurance.
the next thing I remember is my sister yanking me up by the back of my bathing suit, checking to see if I was breathing. “I was relaxing!” i told her.
stillness has been on my mind a lot this week. life feels very calm right now. it’s even and paced. and though, of course, everything isn’t going my way, i feel enveloped by a really strong sense of peace and stillness.
at first, it caught me off guard. “i think i’m bored!” i told my friends, not really knowing what to do with this feeling. i know myself enough to know that stillness is a foreign way of being, and instead of pushing it away because it feels weird, i’m trying to savor it like i did at that moment on the beach. going into monday and a new week, i’m hoping some comes your way too.
magic on sunday: 04.09.17
our song - radiator hospital
as u were - halfnoise
untitled - palm
cut from first other tape - pile
little april showers - tonstartssbandht
brother - mac demarco
cops come looking - the spirit of the beehive
until sunday,
meghan
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